I never have time, never have time, never have time —have you heard that excuse before? My T key is slightly broken. It’s okay you’re busy, cause if I was a robot and did nothing but homework and studying, I would probably have only have two hours of free time in the 24 hour day. It’s okay you’re busy. It’s okay I’m busy. It’s okay we’re both busy. It’s the weekday. I don’t think I’m supposed to see you, and that’s okay. I’ve been telling myself this for the past three weeks, that it’s okay, get over it, you’re being stupid, it’s okay, but every day the sadness still sneaks up on me. Everyday I will tell myself that it’s okay not to see you. But maybe its not okay not to talk to you…I haven’t quite figured that out yet. I’m done blocking out time just for you, just in case you want to see me, just in case you want to. It’s fine to be busy. It’s fine. That’s what I keep telling myself, anyway. School is kicking my ass but didn’t I already know that was coming? Suck it up Seanie and realize what’s really important, and make time for that instead of imaginary plans.
getting SO turnt up right now with my chem lab report BIO MAJOR 4 LYFE
if there’s one thing I learned last night it’s that you don’t know shit about anyone. Ever.
and when you tell me that I am everything I’m supposed to be, everything you want me to be and everything you need me to be, I fall in love with you all over again.
I could cry for six hours like I did three weeks ago but that wouldn’t change anything. Yeah, I can’t see the end of the tunnel. Yeah, I haven’t felt normal in over a month. Yeah, I don’t know what to do anymore. Yeah, I’m hopeless. Yeah, I’m confused. Yeah, one minute I want to smile and the next I want to sob. Bottom line is that I’m going through a lot and I’m trying to keep it together but I don’t know how. Maybe this is trying to make me stronger. But I feel no progress. I miss my boyfriend every night before I go to sleep and every morning when I wake up, but today he really made everything better. I don’t know what I would have done without him and I think when everything’s said and done, that’s the only thing that matters. I love you, so much, with everything inside of me, and I thank you so much for being the boyfriend that you are. The one thing that can never, never, never be questioned is your care and love for me and I thank you so much for that. I don’t know what else to say except I love you and thank you. I know we need to work on things but there’s no one else I want to do it with than with you.
Nobody fucking talks to me that way.
Forgive others, not because they deserve forgiveness, but because you deserve peace.
It’ll only be a few days but It’s midnight and I feel this pain in my stomach because there’s honestly nothing I wouldn’t give to be in bed with you tonight.