Now i’d say I’m pretty good in coexiting with the ratchet species, but my skills were tested yeterday. Oh yes, they were tested
please lord, help me find peace in the awful pictures of me that are put on the internet by other people.
if there’s one thing I learned last night it’s that you don’t know shit about anyone. Ever.
and when you tell me that I am everything I’m supposed to be, everything you want me to be and everything you need me to be, I fall in love with you all over again.
I don’t want to admit that I’m not strong enough to keep my personal issues from seeping into other parts of my life. I feel weak, low and defeated and I know you can tell and I’m sorry.
I could cry for six hours like I did three weeks ago but that wouldn’t change anything. Yeah, I can’t see the end of the tunnel. Yeah, I haven’t felt normal in over a month. Yeah, I don’t know what to do anymore. Yeah, I’m hopeless. Yeah, I’m confused. Yeah, one minute I want to smile and the next I want to sob. Bottom line is that I’m going through a lot and I’m trying to keep it together but I don’t know how. Maybe this is trying to make me stronger. But I feel no progress. I miss my boyfriend every night before I go to sleep and every morning when I wake up, but today he really made everything better. I don’t know what I would have done without him and I think when everything’s said and done, that’s the only thing that matters. I love you, so much, with everything inside of me, and I thank you so much for being the boyfriend that you are. The one thing that can never, never, never be questioned is your care and love for me and I thank you so much for that. I don’t know what else to say except I love you and thank you. I know we need to work on things but there’s no one else I want to do it with than with you.
Nobody fucking talks to me that way.
Forgive others, not because they deserve forgiveness, but because you deserve peace.
It’ll only be a few days but It’s midnight and I feel this pain in my stomach because there’s honestly nothing I wouldn’t give to be in bed with you tonight.